CROWN BIRTHDAY

There is something about a new year / another birthday that, without fail, always gets you in your feels. I don’t know about you, but every year I feel a shift happening inside myself. A mixed bag of emotions if I’m honest. Its a time for stocktaking on what went down in the last 12 months and the bullshit task of processing it all. On top of trying to figure it all out at once.

It is the 31st of January 2023 as I write this. My 31st birthday on this Earth. Still not comfortable on this rollercoaster ride. Who can be given all it’s twists and turns? Here I am trying to process the complete pile of garbage that was last year. My last post was very much real and explains it all. I was in the thick of thing; in the storm clouds I thought at one point wouldn’t pass. Today? The sun is shining. Literally and figuratively speaking. Its not sunny but the clouds are a breath of fresh air reminding me that not everything dark is bad, and will pass.

Last year was a year of extremes. Extreme high’s and extreme low’s. I had major life changing moments ranging from the accomplishment of reaching major goals, to health and wellness complications, to pure excitement in moments, to moments I wish I could forget. Despite it all, I wish to share with you these lessons the last year has taught me:

• Boundaries / Learning to say no

This could be a whole 6 part series if I’m honest cause wow is there a-lot to unpack here. It took a series of events over one year for me to finally understand this concept, and a really expensive phycologist to help me unpack why it is I struggle to set boundaries, stand firm in them, and learn how to say no to people, situations and with myself. Almost everything I went through was a result of this. Needless to say your girl knows better now and is actively trying to do better and be better daily. Also, if you love to read please check out “Boundaries” by Henry Cloud and John Townsend. This book is such an incredible tool to help breakdown and understand boundaries and to start your own journey in creating your own.

• God’s got you

I know I have readers who aren’t particularly interested in religion or have different beliefs than I do. This isn’t me trying to bible bash anyone. I am only talking from experience which is that in the midst of it all God was still there. Still is. Always will be. I struggled to accept this. In the middle of my storm I questioned my own faith. I questioned God. I fought him with tears streaming down my cheeks. Did God show himself to me? No. Did God change my situation? No. What He did was use people to help me. God placed each and every person in my life so strategically that I never felt unsupported, alone, or isolated. I couldn’t see Him / hear Him / feel Him. But He was, and will always be, there.

These are really broad lessons and I hope that in future posts I get to unravel them in more detail with you. Shrek best described himself as an onion with layers and I couldn’t find a better description to all this than that even if I tried.

For now, I look forward to a new year. Whatever challenges may come. I mean I really don’t want to be one of God’s strongest soldiers again this year, but if I must … I am a lot stronger than I thought. It also means more “life lessons” posts lol! Sorry

All my love

Darcy